Conferencing To My Mom

I am going to tell my mom that I want to get depression pills because I cant fake this any longer. I am only happy with my friend and the people I love. Some how I just get lost and get depressed for no reason and I don't even know why. I am crying typing this because i am scared about what she will say and I do not think I can do it in person with my family around so I am going to do it thought text and tell her I don't want the others to know. I hope this go well because I can't do this for that long anymore and I need to fix it because everything it me is going numb and its not good. I know you all with think I been lying to you but when I do say I am happy I am at the time you ask me. Yes only 2 people know my true feeling about life only because I don't want to hurt anyone.

I have had depression for a long time now and i have lied to my family about it but when I did tell my mom I have depression she though I was joking so this time I am going to text her and tell her and see how it goes. Hopefully she won't admit me in the hospital or over react about it. I will write again when I see how it goes. I love you all thank you for reading.